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Neurodiversity, or “The Theory and Practice of Oligarchical Collectivism” -Proposing the “Medi-Social© Model of Disability and Neurodivergence” III-

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One of writing’s most complex hurdles is leaving one’s “body” to immerse in the dream within dream of creating a structure for a world somewhat different than the original.

In the dystopian nightmare created by Orwell, Emmanuel Goldstein’s “book” becomes the embodiment of Winston’s hope that his participatory complicity in changing the past to suit a power-dependent, fluid future, will be forgiven, first of all by his own, desperate, depleted, sick, hungry and frightened self…

History has proven over and over again, that “Ignorance is Strength”; that the more “society” needs to ascend to a higher level of “consciousness” the easiest way is through what has become known as “purges”, or the “natural selection through the survival of the fittest”. This is what binds together Thomas Malthus’ theory of passive purge of the weak and vulnerable and Mao Zedong, architect of the murderous “cultural revolution” purge. The “fittest” will decide the means through which the less fortunate may be left, or helped to remain silent…

For some time now, the cult like “neurodiversity movement” has been going through a desperate process of finding any meaning in Singer’s frankensteinian, biodiversity inspired monstrosity. Waves upon waves of more or less well-meaning scientists of mostly non-medical sciences, ridden by more or less derailed individuals and their cohorts, are competing in a sinister race to purge a past they neither understand, nor desire to understand, from anything standing in their way to re-build something for which they have no plans whatsoever…

For some yet cloud shrouded reason, the #NDcult has chosen Autism as their main re-constructionist experiment, probably for the simple, utilitarian reason of being a still unknown disorder, having nevertheless the attention of a spotlight large enough to illuminate their narcissistic egos. And to ensure that ignorance is being further strengthened, they have ever since remembered to pay lip service to other dyslexia, dyspraxia and neurodivergent disorders, relabeling them as evolutionary achievements, “simple variations” of our brains.

As for the “what shall we do with the severe autism part”, the #NDcult has re-branded everything and anything ill-fitting their “geek syndrome”, as comorbidities to be dealt with by the medical professionals ostracised by neurodiversity sociology’s relentless “de-medicalising” and “de-pathologising” purges. Parents and carers of non-geek Autistic individuals have also been targeted for every politically incorrect attempt to express their frustration, pain and desire for finding scientifically valid treatments for their loved ones, being trampled in the mud of the vilest sub-human abuse.

In a recent tweet, @stevesilberman made valiant proof of why neither investigative journalism, nor a career in law should lead the way in shaping the future for millions of people with Autism worldwide. Because if he really meant writing, that “This whole thing is one of the most powerful statements of what ‘neurodiversity’ really means” as an introduction to Tay­lor-Park­er’s following idea, neither of them has any idea of what an IQ 30 means:

“Neu­ro­di­ver­si­ty isn’t an idea whose use­ful­ness is lim­it­ed to peo­ple who are “high func­tion­ing” or “just quirky” because it inher­ent­ly looks at peo­ple who will have exten­sive, expen­sive sup­port needs for the fore­see­able future and asks how we can help these peo­ple build the best pos­si­ble lives for them­selves. Neu­ro­di­ver­si­ty looks to every idea, tool, and prac­ti­cal solu­tion it can lay hands on to answer the ques­tion of how to have a good life with an IQ of 30, exec­u­tive func­tion­ing dif­fi­cul­ties, schiz­o­phre­nia, no ver­bal speech, or all of the above. Where med­i­cine is stumped, and the peo­ple affect­ed may not even want a “cure,” neu­ro­di­ver­si­ty draws heav­i­ly on the social mod­el of dis­abil­i­ty to offer some­thing unique: hope”.

To clarify what an IQ 30 really means, allow me to use as an example the details provided in the former DSM 4 TR:

“318.1 Severe Mental Retardation: IQ level 20-25 to 35-40 (accounts for 3-4% of retarded population). The group with Severe Mental Retardation constitutes 3%-4%of individuals with Mental Retardation. During the early childhood years, they acquire little or no communication speech. During the school-age period, they may learn to talk and can be trained in elementary self-care skills. They profit to only a limited extent from instruction in pre-academic subjects, such as familiarity with the alphabet and simple counting, but can master skills such as learning slight reading of some “survival” words. In their adult years, they may be able to perform simple tasks in closely supervised settings. Most adapt well to life in the community, in group homes or with their families, unless they have an associated handicap that requires specialized nursing or other care. (emphasis mine.)

May I ask anyone for that matter, which part of this DSM quote would offer any incentive for someone to believe that individuals living on this severe end of the Autism Spectrum, could ever “build the best pos­si­ble lives for them­selves”? Because “closely supervised settings” have little do with either autonomy or independence! And why would anyone want a severely disabled, highly dependent individual to build such lives for themselves, when the first call should be the warmth and dedication of their own families to help and assist them, except for when that would be practically impossible? Unfortunately, submitting the article to a simple search for words such as “family/families” returned a disappointing “no results”. However, reading the article I was shocked to find the opposite of what a family should stand for, which is “filicide”, “the deliberate act of a parent killing their own child” …

I am not going to apologise for asking, but what sort of mentality would drive anyone to write an entire article where the only reference to family is a concept on the criminal opposite of what a family should be?

Indeed, as suspected in the beginning, the strength of “neurodiversity” as a “movement”, seems to be its obnoxious ignorance summarised in: “accept the fact that med­i­cine doesn’t have an answer to neu­ro­log­i­cal vari­ety” and most important, “accept­ing that peo­ple are peo­ple, and, love it, hate it, or feel ambiva­lent about it, there is no cure today.”

Is this the “future” of “gold” so fiercely advocated by neurodiversity, the fatalistic view that if “there is no cure today” there won’t be one tomorrow? Is this the reason why neurodiversity is so hell-bent in “de-medicalising” and “de-pathologising” autism, campaigning against vital, life saving medical research about the complex neuro-physiopathology of Autism and its comorbidities, so brazenly called “quackery” by some neurodiversity proponents?

Let me ask in a non-delegated, but implicated way, what shall we do, all clinical professionals from countless fields of medical, health and care sciences? Throw away our passion for being better providers, to the best of our capabilities, of anything and everything could make the lives of people with autism, dyslexia, dyspraxia, Tourette’s, epilepsy, seizures and many other aspects of probably the same, most complex neurodevelopmental disorder, and embrace “neurodiversity” with its utter misunderstanding of the social model of disability? As I have said many times, myself and all clinical professionals I know, work closely together with our dedicated social work colleagues, in multi-disciplinary teams sometimes desperately trying to ensure equitable opportunities to everyone in our care. And we are far from perfect, but I have never heard any of my clinical colleagues talking about “de-socialising” our teams, or our social work colleagues about “de-clinicalising” them?

No, not by any chance…

Returning to my title, I must reiterate my surprise to have realised that the neurodiversity movement is indeed collectivism, with a structure of unquestionable allegiance to its oligarchically maintained “ideology”, which in their own words rests on two major principles. The 1st principle is “Every­one gets the same basic rights”, the 2nd being “There are no excep­tions for label, IQ, or degree of sup­port needs”. By the way, please don’t approach me with diversions such us “why haven’t I read everything in context”! I did, again and again, just to have become unwilling to suffer any longer the inflicted intellectual distress…

I will conclude with another statement which seems to be the essence of what neurodiversity is, and its effects on a society maybe expecting more help instead of even more suffering:

“Neu­ro­di­ver­si­ty is an idea for strong peo­ple, as it bites and claws at every­one who embraces it.”

And I can confirm with my own life and experience, that “neurodiversity” and its cult-like movement has left me with nothing but bite-marks and claw-scars since the day I “embraced” it.

Because if one’s strength is their ignorance, their peace will be a war against themselves and ultimately others.

Remember nevertheless, that ultimately, the real victims of all wars are not the strong, but the vulnerable…

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A Medi-Social Model of Neurodivergence/Neurodiversity, an Introduction… (- II -)

[Rev.] Romulus Campan FDScMH (Forensic), LTh (Hons), CertEd, QTS,
PgCert Religion, Spirituality & Mental Health,
PgCert Special Psychopedagogy,
PgCert Autism & Asperger’s

This article is an expanded and revised version of my previous post, A Concerned Neurodivergent’s critique of Judy Singer’s “There’s a lot in a name… Diversity vs Divergence” article – I – …

I have only incidentally heard about Judy Singer, which is probably due to her self-acknowledged two-decade long absence, succinctly described as: “Returning to the field 20 years later”.

As succinctly described in her article, these motives seem to be complex, motivated mainly as it appears, by Dr Nancy Doyle’s choice of describing “People with Neurodiversity”, as being -in Singer’s own words- “an assortment of people with a range of conditions like Aspergers (sic), Autism, ADHD, Dyslexia, Dyspraxia, etc”.

I hope to correctly remember the author saying (in a tweet I cannot access anymore), that her article was meant as an “opening gambit” to be followed by more “moves”, mentioning also an openness to learning and dialogue and as one might subsequently assume, debate. Having read the article, I considered necessary to express the following concern: “with all due respect, but if ND is ever going to live up to its name, it has to move-on from having come to actually represent only a more or less autistic, loud minority, which has become exclusive by ignorance, of other Neurodivergent conditions…” and I must add, their various levels of severity.

The essence of Singer’s article perfectly overlaps with a development within the Neurodiversity “movement” I have been following for the past couple of years, which I perceive as a theoretical threat to a necessary progression of Neurodiversity from its oversimplified and absolutely inaccurate “biodiversity” origins, onto an umbrella concept for Neurodivergent conditions, as summarised in DANDA’s graphic representation.

 In an effort therefore, to reconcile the double existential divide and dichotomy caused by a lack of balance within the Medical/Clinical Model of Neurodivergence and the Social Model’s denialism, I am proposing what I consider a more objective perspective, which I would call The Medi-Social Model of Neurodivergence/Neurodiversity, applicable to basically all Neurodivergent conditions.

Having worked in forensic mental health for the past few years, I can boldly assert that the structural elements of a Medi-Social Model of Neurodivergence/Neurodiversity have always been present in what has been suggested as the Medical Model, which could have never existed without it’s Social aspects, richly proven by the well-known existence of the Multidisciplinary Teams mandated by legislation to be present at each step of an individual’s journey through their individualised Recovery Pathway.

However, a Medi-Social Model of Neurodivergence/Neurodiversity would open the possibility of exploring new and necessary horizons of how all participants in these multidisciplinary teams, such as the individuals themselves, their caregivers, their clinical team, their social worker team, could change the Recovery Pathway Dynamic from a Clinical Team dependant hierarchical to a more co-participative/intersectional. The proposed model would also represent a justified abandonment of what I perceive as a trend exemplified by Dr Doyle’s “Genius Within” (GW)
revised version of DANDA’s diagram:

Because unfortunately, well-meaning efforts to focus on the ‘good’, have tragically resulted in a complete loss of sight about the ‘bad’ and the ‘ugly’, clearly seen when comparing DANDA’s and GW’s diagrams, where the central, neurodiversity defining areas have migrated from concepts such as “Difficulties…, Poor…, Low…, Anxiety…” to “Evolution has created specialist thinkers, to bring a variety of expertise to humanity”.

I can’t do any better at this moment, than remember the religiously uplifting “blessed are the poor in spirit” and its agnostic translation “ignorance is bliss” …

Because any attempts to romanticise by avoidance, the consequences of being born with a structurally different brain, which translates into oftentimes insurmountable social integration difficulties, are no better than primarily psychiatric, exclusively medication-based approaches to such neurological differences.

And yes, I cautiously agree that most neurodivergent conditions exemplified in the diagrams are not psychiatric illnesses per se; ignoring however, the often-devastating effects these have on an individual’s overall physical and mental wellbeing, which cannot be addressed from a Social Model perspective only, is no less than gross negligence.

In an effort to clarify a vital segment of reassessing and restructuring the Neurodiversity narrative, I was forced to ask the following, probably uncomfortable question: “[…] Unfortunately, current efforts, well-meaning as they are, seem too much about an integrative sociology of lower dependency autism. When was last you heard e.g. Dyscalculia mentioned?”

Because I genuinely believe that a Neurodiversity concept and narrative which ignores its complex Neurodivergence architecture, is in danger of becoming useless and harmful, discrediting worldwide efforts to move away from this completely misunderstood “I came to the ND word from the Green Movement, […] the word Biodiversity…” onto my proposal’s integrated perspective of Neurodivergence, which understands the intrinsic clinical/medical, physiological and/or pathological aspects of Autism, AD(H)D, Autism, Dyslexia, Dyscalculia, Dyspraxia, Tourette Syndrome, etc, (the list being still debated), as integrated with the extrinsic correlations inevitable given by a neurodivergent’s inescapable social pertinence.

Beneath the surface, it appears that article author’s real problem seems to be associating “her” Neurodiversity, with Disability, or in her own words, “The problem with the expression “People with Neurodiversity” is that it turns Neurodiversity into the latest fashionable synonym for Disability” …

Reading this, it becomes hopefully clear that the danger of what I have several times called a “hijacked” and “derailed” Neurodiversity narrative is real, leaving not much doubt about a  deep-seated desire of a mostly high-functioning autistic and “autistic”, loud minority, to dissociate themselves from the less fashionable, disabling aspects of autism and all other neurodivergent conditions, by following a restrictively enforced set of agreed rules, reminiscent of vigilantism, e.g. language policing, disability terminology avoiding, “autism parent” abusing, etc…

Further analysing the article, everything seems to have taken a surreal turn when it read: “The role of the ‘NeuroDiversity Movement’ then is to be a federation of different Neurotribes […] I argue therefore that ND must remain ‘sacrosanct’, a universal truth that we can point to when insisting on the necessity of our existence.” (emphasis mine).

I do not remember, reading Silberman’s “Neurotribes”, that any of his intentions were anywhere close to Singer’s grandiose ideas that “the role of the Neurodiversity Movement is to unite all the people with simple neurological variants behind the same advocacy banner: i.e. the syndrome formerly known as Aspergers, ADD, ADHD, Dyslexia, Dyspraxia, Stuttering, etc.” (emphasis mine).

I do sincerely hope, that thinkers with a much more complex understanding of these conditions, with a scientific and lived-experience understanding of “Asperger’s, Dyslexia, ADD, ADHD, Dyspraxia, Stuttering etc”, will understand the discriminative reductionism resulting from redefining these oftentimes severely debilitating and disabling conditions, as “simple neurological variants”, moving away from what has become a questionable attempt by proponents of mainly social sciences, to unilaterally rewrite a neurodivergence narrative pioneered by illustrious figures of medical sciences…

To be continued…

https://www.geniuswithin.co.uk/blog/theres-a-lot-in-a-name-diversity-vs-divergence/

A Concerned Neurodivergent’s critique of Judy Singer’s “There’s a lot in a name… Diversity vs Divergence” article – I – …

I have only incidentally heard about Judy Singer, which is probably due to her two-decade long absence, which she succinctly describes as: “Returning to the field 20 years later”.

As rather erratically “clarified” in her article, these motives seem to be, using the least belligerent term which comes to my mind, complex, motivated mainly as it appears, by Dr Nancy Doyle’s choice of describing “People with Neurodiversity” as being -in Singer’s words- “an assortment of people with a range of conditions like Aspergers, Autism, ADHD, Dyslexia, Dyspraxia, etc.”

Singer herself, in a tweet I cannot access anymore, said that her article was meant as an “opening gambit” to be followed by more moves. She also mentioned to be open to learning and as one might assume, debating, which resulted in my following concern: “Judy, with all due respect, but if ND is ever going to live up to its name, it has to move on from having come to actually represent only a more or less autistic, but loud minority, which has become exclusive by ignorance, of other Neurodivergent conditions…” As a reply Singer condescendingly and literally sent me to go “read more…”

I myself moved, prompted by what I have perceived as a theoretical threat to a desirable progression of Neurodiversity from its “biodiversity” origins onto the emerging, umbrella concept for Neurodivergent conditions.

In an apparently futile effort to clarify a vital segment of reassessing and restructuring the Neurodiversity narrative, I asked her: “[…] Unfortunately, current efforts, well-meaning as they are, seem too much about an integrative sociology of lower dependency autism. When was last you heard e.g. Dyscalculia mentioned?” because I genuinely believe that a Neurodiversity concept and narrative which ignores its complex Neurodivergence architecture, is in danger of becoming a useless and harmful joke, discrediting worldwide efforts to move away from this illusory “I came to the ND word from the Green Movement, […] the word Biodiversity…” onto what Doyle’s “Genius Within” describes as “Passionate about developing talent and achieving success with ADHD, Autism, Dyslexia, Dyspraxia, Tourette Syndrome, Mental Health, and all neurodiverse conditions”.

As it turns out, Singer’s real problem seem to be associating “her” Neurodiversity, with Disability, or in her own veiled words, “The problem with the expression “People with Neurodiversity” is that it turns Neurodiversity into the latest fashionable synonym for Disability”.

Reading this, it becomes clear that the danger of what I have several times called a “hijacked” and “derailed” Neurodiversity narrative is real, leaving not much doubt about a  deep-seated desire of a mostly high-functioning autistic and “autistic”, loud minority, to dissociate themselves from the less fashionable, disabling aspects of autism and all other neurodivergent conditions, by following a restrictively enforced set of agreed rules, reminiscent of vigilantism, e.g. language policing, disability terminology avoiding, “autism parenting” abusing, etc…

However, what metaphorically made my spinal fluid boil and my left eye badly twitching were her following statements: “The role of the “NeuroDiversity Movement” then is to be a federation of different Neurotribes”, but even more the “I argue therefore that ND must remain “sacrosanct”, a universal truth that we can point to when insisting on the necessity of our existence.” (emphasis mine).

I do not remember at all, reading Silberman’s Neurotribes, that any of his intentions were anywhere close to Singer’s grandiose ideas that “the role of the Neurodiversity Movement is to unite all the people with simple neurological variants behind the same advocacy banner: i.e. the syndrome formerly known as Aspergers, ADD, ADHD, Dyslexia, Dyspraxia, Stuttering, etc.” (emphasis mine).

I do sincerely hope, that thinkers with a much more complex understanding of these conditions, with a scientific and lived experience understanding of the severely debilitating and disabling effects of Asperger’s, Dyslexia, ADD, ADHD, Dyspraxia, Stuttering etc, will be able to see beyond Singer’s unbelievable ignorance in calling these “simple neurological variants”.

And if anyone has any more doubts about the intentionally discriminative approach of this “sacrosanct” version of Neurodiversity, please read again and again and understand, that this derailed “Neurodiversity Movement” has no place for anyone not fitting the “simple neurological variant” criteria.

In conclusion, allow me to remind myself, that my Asperger’s, my Dyslexia, my Dyspraxia, my Dyscalculia, which haunted my school and further education years, which painfully continue to cripple so many aspects of my life, could NEVER be solved by any social adjustments.

Does anyone know what it feels like to be a middle-aged person, holding my hand out at any shop’s till, asking like a broken child the cashier to count the coins out of my hand, because I can’t? Because having Dyscalculia left my analytical mind disabled, unable to count one pound from coins having their sizes disproportionate of their values?

And there’s no cashier’s kind “social adjustment” capable of easing the howling rage inside my mind, for having been born this way…

To be continued…

https://www.geniuswithin.co.uk/blog/theres-a-lot-in-a-name-diversity-vs-divergence/

The Stockholm Syndrome Symptomatology of Neurodiversity Militantism

me 1I was diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) in June 2017. As I wrote in the “About…” tab of my blog, “Over 50 years of a rather odd life, came to a sudden realisation, with all the clicks and cogs falling to their right places.”

Little did I know at the time, that the sudden realisation was only the preamble of what is as I write, the crawling to a frightening light, of a child I can’t even remember, and whose only ‘happy’ memory is a set of painted wood blocks, neatly ordered in a slide-top box, taken out every day to became the same ‘castle’ in which no toy was ever planned to live, or play.

If I would have to give a name to the featured picture, it would be “Leave me alone”. I never liked being photographed, being looked at; probably because everyone expected me to look back, to show the same colloquial interest which never interested me.

I’ve never understood humans, the reasons why they kept asking stupid questions such as “what would you like to be when you grow up”, just to laugh themselves to urine when the five years old replied “Pensioner, because you don’t have to do anything, and the mailman brings you the money”. Mind you, I was raised by my maternal grandmother, savvy pensioner taking her grandson everywhere, mainly to the popular coffee parlours famous for their Italian expresso machines, dripping the golden bath for my -always at hand- thirsty sugar cubes.

I never had “friends”. My acquaintances could be anything and anyone, from my grandmother’s gossip team, my wooden blocks, collectible Gillette razor blade boxes, match boxes, my blind, talcum powder smelling masseurs (muscular atrophy), to the whole plethora of colleagues blessed or cursed to have met me.

Before being entirely absorbed in 2017 by the Neurodiversity “movement”, my life took a similar, dramatic self-discovery turn in 1990, when following a partly societal, partly family heirloom inherited, devastating guilt crisis, I had “my sins taken away by Jesus” and my civil liberties by a neo-evangelical church. The “love story” ended following nearly two decades of a genuinely successful international ministry, inclusive of two major academic degrees and two postgrads, radio, TV and conferencing.

My fondest memory of the time is a story by the manipulative “pastor” of the emotionally controlled congregation, about an Eastern European dictator, asked by a journalist how is it possible for the nation to adore him, while he basically took away all their rights? Apparently, the dictator asked for a living chicken and to the utter shock of the journalist, he plucked the agonising bird’s feathers clean. Having spread a handful of breadcrumbs on his boots, he put the poor bird down, which obnoxiously started to eat them. “You see?” the dictator said, “you can take away everything from your population, still they’ll mindlessly follow you as long as you give them enough to survive on.”

Keep this in mind…

Returning now to the reason for a title which may stir instinctive reactions I’m expectantly aware of, I remember in 2017 leaving my Autism assessor’s office with a maelstrom of emotions I did not expect, dragging behind myself the barely finished, mostly incoherently  mumbled reply to my diagnosing psychiatrist’s question, “How do you feel now, knowing what you felt all along?”

“Confused a bit…” I said, “both liberated and frightened…” because I did not want to tell her out of respect, that my first thought as I mentioned in my relevant post was “angry”, for all the reasons I describe there.

I was sitting in my car, trying to breathe, nearly crying, or maybe laughing as I usually do at funerals, trying to make sense of 54 years passed by, of a life weirdly writing itself like backwards with each new year.

At that time, I was well aware of Neurodiversity (ND) as an umbrella term for all neurodivergent conditions, but also as a “movement”, which started to ‘absorb’ me deeper and deeper, for all the good reasons I understood and identified with, absolutely in love with Silberman’s brilliant “Neurotribes”, the cosy fellowship of kindred spirits and high hopes to change the world for the better.

Another year of academic effort rewarded me by meeting autistic academic  Luke Beardon from whom I’ve learned that learning’s prime asset is critical thinking, at both its giving and receiving ends.

It was around that time, when I started looking at my autism with a receiving critical attitude, of questioning if self-acceptance and its projected extrapolation through the less and less “diverse and inclusive” Neurodiversity movement and some of its most “impetuous” proponents, is the right way forward.

I witnessed horrified and in utter dismay, mobs of self-proclaimed ND “advocates”, advocating nothing else but basest attitudes of hunting into silence perceived “dissidents” for taking themselves the liberty to think, having hijacked and mutilated much of what Neurodiversity would have been good for, oftentimes turning it into a lucrative merchandise, and a gathering ground for attention seeking individuals trying to force acceptance of their “valid” “selfDx”, so desperately necessary to stabilise the insecure reflection of themselves trembling together with the shallow social waters they are looking into.

Traveling for a while with the group, I more and more felt the unease and suspicious dread of a deja-vu which scarred what should have been the best two decades of my life.

I also met “the enemies”; scared, sometimes scarred autistic thinkers bravely unwilling to forfeit their liberty of thinking for belonging anywhere, exhausted yet hopeful mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, grandmothers, carers of autistic children and adults, many angry and frustrated to have their words and thoughts twisted by self-proclaimed ND representatives, unable to understand which part of “severe autism” can’t these “inclusion and diversity” vigilantes understand?!

I also met the counter-hijackers, same sort of self-proclaimed experts, mostly of their hate and bitter dissatisfaction with life’s immutable unfairness, living of the margins of counter-arguing every shade of neurodiversity they could find, throwing out in an identically destructive frenzy, not only the “baby with the bath water” but the bathtub as well.

And then, I finally understood, my life’s twisted entanglement with a condition I tried beyond “accept” to love…

A “love triangle” sort of relationship with neurodevelopmental conditions which claimed a brilliant mind, with physical conditions which claimed for daily torment my talented body, shaping who I am, hardly ever getting to know whom I should or could have been, or who my destroyed by alcohol, neurodivergent asocial father could have been, or who my benzodiazepines dependent neurodivergent mother could have been, or who my hero partner of 26 years, severely neurodivergent wife could have been, fiercely doing all I can for my neurodivergent children to become the best they could be …

I realised that I have desperately tried to consciously legitimise the subconscious, Stockholm Syndrome attachment to my Autism, to make all the suffering it caused a “love story”, forgetting that from Romeo and Juliet to Hiller’s Love Story, death and suffering rip afresh the deep wounds and scars of all such stories.

I sadly understood that, exactly as in the trading of my liberty in exchange for an only hoped religious absolution from guilt, my efforts to “love” my autism were nothing else but desperate attempts to transform accept and tolerance, into romance…

Wandering deeper, I must ask the hate-magnet question: “Is the derailed part of the Neurodiversity “movement”, with its priestesses and priests preaching and demanding acceptance, while ostracising anyone and all questioning them and/or their motives, their agenda and their Autism narrative representation validity, a real example of a double Stockholm Syndrome, where autistic individuals desperately want to love something which has probably taken away more from their lives than what it gave them, being further afraid to think and speak for themselves, for fear of having the (remember?) breadcrumbs of an illusion of belonging taken away from them”?

The reason I’m extrapolating my own existential struggle, is having worked with, taught with and been with diagnosed autistics clearly going through such soulquakes more or less openly, yet afraid to break free from this double attachment?!

I accept myself as disabled.

I “love” myself in spite of my disabilities.

But no one should expect me to love my disabilities.

I tolerate my disabilities trying to rearrange my life around them, in order to allow myself the space to live, create and care; for as long as I can.

So, what now?

I know that both the Neurodiversity side and the Severe Autism and Autism Parenting side have at their cores brilliant individuals surrounded by even more brilliant individuals, tired of being misrepresented by abusive mobs of questionable entities, diagnosed or not, causing more and more harm to a silent, often unseen majority.

Isn’t it high-time to bridge the shameful divide with a dialogue and alliance of interests already thought of, necessary to advance a unified agenda of making living with autism, a life beyond mere survival?

How? By listening instead of judging and by supporting instead of policing.

Because I can’t love autism, but I can respect and care about us.

There should be more to our neurodivergent lives than breadcrumbs…

The Cognitive-Behavioural Interpretative Isolationism of Intellectually Proficient Kanner’s & Asperger’s Autism (IPKAA)©- Part 1: What the “Theory of Mind” doesn’t understand about the Autistic Mind…

 

Part 1- What the “Theory of Mind” doesn’t understand about the Autistic Mind

Rom Feldmann© FDScMH, LTh(Hons), CertEd,

PgCert Special Psychopedagogy,

PgCert Autism & Asperger’s, QTS

 

On the back cover of the seminal “Neurotribes” (Silberman, 2015) the inquisitive eye should spot a hidden gem of apocalyptic proportions, basically stating that “the future of our society depends on our understanding” of what autism is. The statement is so powerful and frightening or maybe totally insane, that when I first blogged it, it attracted virtually no likes or comments. I will attempt to better understand why.

Surprisingly for a pathologized, general view of autism, Attwood (2002) mentioned research by Hans Asperger (1906-1980) in identifying “a consistent pattern of abilities and behaviour”.

The battleground becoming contention is therefore seeing and accepting the autism spectrum as a pattern of abilities or disabilities, branching itself further into seemingly endless explanatory theories and terminology wars, which I will attempt to deconstruct and re-construct from a personalised academic and philosophical perspective.

1.The Theory of Mind (ToM):

‘[…] ToM is the ability to put oneself into someone else’s shoes, to imagine their thoughts and feelings, so as to be able to make sense of and predict their behaviour. It is sometimes called mind-reading or mentalising.‘ (Baron-Cohen, 2008, 57)

Expanding further on his own statement, Baron-Cohen summarises on the same page, that ToM can be thought of as a theory which explains that a neurotypical (NT) person is normally/usually able to explain and predict other people’s behaviour, thus leaving autistics unable to use the ToM to interpret or anticipate the actions and/or intentions of individuals whom they have contact with, and therefore mind-blindly disadvantaged.

In my opinion, -and leaving aside a random personal thought about the fairly entertainment industry resembling concept of ‘mind-reading’-, Baron-Cohen and other scientists considering this theory, have attempted through ToM to understand why autistics seem unable to mentalise/mind-read, having observed NT and autistic children/adults, comparing their reactions mainly from an observable, neurotypical-behaviour perspective, without focusing on the much more important, individually specific, selectively volitional, pre-behavioural aspect. Because regardless of age, autistic individuals may possess a more functional capacity to individually and gradually select -or not-, a momentary focus of attention, leaving a NT observant genuinely mind-blind to the fact that autistic pre-decisional mental analytics are de facto behind what could be perceived as obnoxiousness or an inability of perception. However, especially at early stages of individual development, autistics are less aware of the reasons why mentally they may decide to fixate on some encountered aspects while actively ignoring any others, even if someone tries to divert their fixated attention, oftentimes provoking as a result, unexpected reactions commonly called shut- or meltdowns. Depending on an autistic individual’s level of what I propose to be identified as a Neurobiological Socio-Interconnectivity Predisposition (NSIP), unfortunately mistaken sometimes for other, valid learning disabilities (LD) such as ‘congenital abnormalities of the frontal lobes’ (Attwood, 2002), adult autistics may decide to learn (or not), to mentally re-negotiate maintaining, or shifting the focus of their fixation, identified by Murray et al (2005) as monotropism.

Because each individual is entitled to have someone else’s undivided attention, as much as the individual(s) from whom they expect such attention, decide for reasons they should not be expected or forced to disclose, to grant it or not. Autistics have the inalienable right to ignore at least as much as we are oftentimes ignored, without any obligation whatsoever to provide a reason for our choice to socially interact or prefer to remain asocial.

(to be continued…)

 

-Attwood, T., (2002). Asperger’s Syndrome – A Guide for Parents and Professionals. London: Jessica Kingsley Publishers

-Baron-Cohen, S., (2008). Autism and Asperger Syndrome. London: OUP

-Murray, Dinah; Lesser, M.; Lawson, W (1 May 2005). “Attention, monotropism and the diagnostic criteria for autism”  Autism. 9 (2): 139–56.

-Silberman, S., (2015). Neurotribes. London: Allen & Unwin

 

 

 

 

The “mens sana in corpore sano” War Against Autistics, Dyslexics and Dyspraxics…

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(Multiple Trigger Alert: Accounts of Abuse and Humiliation Against Autistics, Dyslexics, Dyspraxics!!!)

Please don’t be offended by this post if you’re an athlete or someone else who believes in what I consider to be the myth of “a healthy mind in a healthy body”…

Because while I don’t mind at all if you earnestly believe that your healthy mind is supposed to dwell in your healthy body, or that for you, a healthy body is supposed to be an athletic one, for me, and for innumerable other non-athletic individuals, including countless autistics and dyspraxics whose bodies were/are “chubby and ungainly” as in Silberman’s mention of Asperger’s “poor Hellmuth”, life under this despicable, “mens sana in corpore sano” banner of humiliating the weak and less able, was and it still is a living hell, having wished so many and unfortunate times to have been literally thrown down the chasms of Taygetus…

I won’t launch in any diatribes about the fact that no human progress has ever been achieved in athletic arenas, except for who can run, swim, jump, kick etc, faster, higher and stronger, but I may disrespectfully ask, why was I forced, coerced and abused into achieving the impossible with a dyspraxic body in the name of a dysfunctional “Physical Education” mentality, while NONE of my athletically abled school colleagues were ever coerced e.g. into writing poetry?

Oh, and as I’m hearing your “but you need talent to write poems” disgruntled question, I’ll venture asking if the same could be also true about physical abilities for sports? Or do you think that only the less -physically- talented/abled are “entitled” to the ridicule of an entire class/school because we can’t do push-ups, frog-leaps, high-jumps, long-jumps, hurdles, we can’t climb ropes, run fast, play football, handball, basketball, volleyball, rugby, etc, while the less creatively talented/abled are exempt?

And I’m not talking about what you didn’t like about the literature and language curriculum, because the curriculum never asked you to force yourself ALL ALONG your school years to naturally start writing lengthy poems in rhyme and meter, long before you knew what “rhyme and meter” are, while the same curriculum forced me to be the laughingstock of an entire school’s gymnasium, as year after year I landed in front of, under, on top, on the sides, but never over the vaulting horse… Standing there, head bowed, swallowing my tears, rubbing my bruises, knowing that at the bottom of the invincible climbing-rope, my overweight PE teacher is going to give me another “you should try harder, you know”…

“Shame on you! Are you stupid, or dumb?” was the “best” my maths, physics, chemistry teachers could do in order to “boost” my chances to understand algebra, analytical algebra, trigonometry calculations etc, which were for them, the epitome of a “healthy mind”, proof that you’re not “eligible” for the “retard school”…

So, there was I, clumsy representative of generations of autistics, dyslexics (dyscalculia included) and dyspraxics, unhappily looking forward to receiving at home “what I deserve” for my bad grades (after a while I wasn’t even urinating in my trousers anymore…), happily knowing that my cubes need their daily arranging, my model planes their daily aligning, my favourite book (Zaharia Stancu’s Barefoot) its (probably) 139th consecutive reading, Darwin’s “Origin of Species” its further analysis, and Miklós Nyiszli’s “Auschwitz: A Doctor’s Eyewitness Account” its horrifying impression on the mind of confused teenager…

Back in those days, no one would have thought that the chubby, big headed, silent dreamer they were abusing and humiliating for having a weird, “unhealthy” (read autistic/dyslexic/dyscalculic) mind in an unhealthy (read dyspraxic) body, would have grown to simultaneously interpret in three languages, creatively use four, understand six, using altogether eight, having self-taught himself three musical instruments, and earning (so far…) three major degrees and two postgraduates?

And as a final paradox, while in the military (you wouldn’t have believed that I’ve earned my stripes and stars once…) which I appreciated for its rule/order/hierarchy structure, they discovered quite quickly that I still can’t do more than 1 1/2 push-ups, and I still can’t climb ropes, but I’m very good at drawing complicated military maps, and I still can’t run neither much, nor fast, but I can force-march 30 km without any stops, leaving behind anyone else, arriving at the training range one hour before anyone else. And while as clumsy as a sloth when asked to run an obstacle course, it turned out that after graduating the military infirmary paramedic training, I was amongst the few to surgically remove/treat abscesses threatening to turn into septicaemias, and administer injections to infants living in remote areas, far away from regular civilian healthcare support. The “jarheads” saw not only what I can’t do, but also what I can, and facilitated my progress accordingly.

All these, and humbly much, much more, as someone who’s never been neither physically, nor mentally “healthy”, according to this planet’s favourite athletically inclined proverb.

But I could have done these, and probably much more, without the “spartan” beatings, the scorn, the shouting and the humiliation, for no other “fault” than that of having been born this way, my way…

 

Photo credits: http://helenroche.com/work/personal-and-political-appropriations-of-sparta-in-german-elite-education-napolas-and-prussian-cadet-schools

“autism: […] the future of our society depends on our understanding it.”

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Over a lifetime spent with mostly futile attempts to drift with the flow, I’ve discovered a mostly disturbing quality of my mind, namely the “finding the needle before seeing the haystack” capability, which made me a persona non-grata at meetings where those having an interest in hiding matters, oftentimes forbade me of taking notes, or even a notebook and pencil, because even though I am unable to see any “bigger (especially false) picture”, I can identify key words/concepts which my mind uses to profile the real picture with its oftentimes dreadful consequences.

A couple of hours ago, I’ve been delivered via St. Amazon a copy of Silberman’s “Neurotribes”. As my “religious” routine is to read first the title, copyrights, ISBN, etc page followed by the back cover, I have found the following, most distressing statement:

“What is autism: a devastating developmental condition, a lifelong disability, or a naturally occurring form of cognitive difference akin to genius? In truth, it is all of these things and more – and the future of our society depends on our understanding it.

Now, one of the advantages of a(n oftentimes identified as mainly) male Asperger’s binary thinking (yes/no, black/white), is an eerie capability of identifying absolutes, ultimate type of words or statements, axiomatic effects of a perceived completion of premises necessary in order to postulate them. And while these could be frightening for example to the clearly disadvantaged counterpart of a debate, from a purely contemplative perspective of judging deductive reasoning, its pure perfection becomes compelling.

Nevertheless, as undesirable as it would be contemplating a nuclear explosion from within, the same must be said about the above highlighted statement. Why? Because from here and now, the future looks and resonates nothing less than an Armageddon riding the Apocalypse for a socio-globality which still considers autism a “historical anomaly”, clarifying on a quod erat demonstrandum level, that there’s virtually no reasonable understanding of autism. Should there be any, searching for illusory “cures” in order “to stop the autism epidemic” would have become long ago shamefully obsolete.

Why have I written this post? Because I have become genuinely frightened at the idea of a future dominated by a neurotypical majority which is about to unleash through its deliberate ignorance, a chain reaction of wrong decisions about me, without having at least spoken in a meaningful way with me first. But even worse, the same majority seems even further ignorant that its wrong decisions shall have an effect not only on me and those alike, but as the quote’s author suggests, on society and ultimately the world as we know it.

Has the author of the quote gone mad writing such belligerent statements disturbing our state of -the art- denial?

I’ll leave it to your further inquiries, reminding you only that Silberman’s book has won “The Samuel Johnson Prize for Non-Fiction 2015”, with someone writing the aforementioned quote in bold, on the back cover.

And the Prize’s motto seems to be “All the best stories are true”…